Balancing chaos with clarity, their music thrives where visceral emotion meets intentional structure. Driven by aching, soaring vocals, guitars that shimmer and snarl, and rhythms that echo the turbulence of inner life, their indie-rock aesthetic is as dynamic as it is deliberate.
“'I Think I’m Going To Hell' is about my traits of OCD, ASD, and anxiety starting when I was a little kid,” Howell shares. “I was roughly five or six years old in the memory that this all stems from, and I stole a single peanut from the grocery store. I had never purposefully done anything wrong before, and wanted to test what could happen, so I ate the peanut in my room, put the shell in my locked diary, and hid the key above the trim on the inside of my closet. No one caught me, but I knew the ‘man in the sky’ saw me, and I was worried that he’d probably tell my great grandparents too. This song describes the thoughts I had surrounding that fear while growing up, feeling like God couldn’t save me, and ultimately trying to figure out how to process religious trauma.”
I love the grunge vibe, especially the great guitar work and the super catchy, intense vocals. The song has a slow-burning quality, characteristic of the 90s, and it's performed amazingly by the band. Be sure to check out the very original solo section as well! The video is well-made as well. Give it a go and follow Bad Self Portraits on social media.
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